Post by Deleted on Nov 17, 2022 6:14:46 GMT -5
You know how some can say a guy is like strong, good with cars, likes sports,
well, I'm not those really. I tried to play sports, got multiple shoulder dislocations,. tried to lift weights, but dislocated my shoulder. I was taken to a baseball game when I was young but that was it. I played flag football, tackle football, wrestling but now at 40, shoot, I'm broken. Two left ankle surgeries and such.
I don't "fit in" with a lot of guys who worked on cars, can fix anything, not me at all. Also the sports thing, my dad was big on sports and lots of guys at church and stuff, this guy? me? nope, I'm lost in the sauce, but I can watch the end of a 4th quarter superbowl to see the final plays, I think that part is exciting or if it's baseball, the last part of the 9th inning and it went into overtime? I think that.
I guess my skills are computer and it started with video game.
I guess I"m a quiet type, I look at all the guys around me, to see where I fit in, I study people a lot...then maybe, I say something after I feel comfortable. At work, it took me 5 years to kind of break of ice, until a boss kind of warmed me up by telling me "hey demonic (get it, he called me demonic), you need to have some levity (yeah, I had to look that word up) and after that, and taking my anxiety meds, I kind of broke some ice, now I am kinda crazy, I laugh loud almost embarrassing but when I get down, I am down for a bit, until I can vent, write some notes, cry, and like yesterday, I drove to work, turned on the tablet to record (facing the road forward not a selfie) then just vented and processed what the day might be. Almost cried but I was driving and I didn't want to die crying.
I am very shallow and don't know what kind of women are there. I used to think bad, you know, like all women are ...you know, but when I see real life, and this forum and other kinds I admit, I'm stupid and need to learn, I can't believe it's taking me so long to learn this. Now I can see you all in a different way. Like a guy almost but not a guy. Not sure if that makes any sense. Well, that do you think?
What kind of women are there?
I forgot to mention, this is how my wife is
1. forgiving
2. mean sometimes but it's because I piss her off, yes I admit
3. good mommy
4. good cook
5. cute heart because she likes girly things and sings (I can't believe people are like that but she is doing it so ..it's reality now)
I very different.
My little girl is funny. She laughs a lot. She is the most purest creature/human/women I know, besides babies of course.