Post by sn000zy on Aug 3, 2015 23:06:31 GMT -5
Lately I have been getting these bad bouts of anxiety. I just start worrying about everything that could go wrong and worrying about things that most likely won't happen and reading too much into things and working myself up for no good reason.
For example, tonight:
My Bf and I hang out all of the time and we had no solid plans tonight but I worked overtime and he went home so I called him and asked him if he wanted me to come over and he said no not tonight because he had a headache and wasn't feeling well and was probably going to bed soon. As a side note, I wouldn't be able to make it to his house until midnight.
So, I was getting all paranoid that he is mad at me for some reason and doesn't want to see me.
Ha ha. As I am writing this I see how silly it actually is. It's the new relationship jitters and left over emotions from my severely abusive ex. Just last night I was planning on going home because I spend a lot of nights at home because of my cats and he REALLY wanted me to stay so I stayed and we snuggled all night. In fact, most times it is he asking me to stay over and me declining because I have to go home. This is the first time he has ever not wanted a sleep over.
Wow. I am silly.
Anyway, last night I couldn't sleep because I was worried about not being able to get a Tuesday off on my work schedule because we have plans to go away. Just worrying about everything stupid.
What do you ladies do when this happens? To tell you the truth I already feel a lot better after I wrote this down.
For example, tonight:
My Bf and I hang out all of the time and we had no solid plans tonight but I worked overtime and he went home so I called him and asked him if he wanted me to come over and he said no not tonight because he had a headache and wasn't feeling well and was probably going to bed soon. As a side note, I wouldn't be able to make it to his house until midnight.
So, I was getting all paranoid that he is mad at me for some reason and doesn't want to see me.
Ha ha. As I am writing this I see how silly it actually is. It's the new relationship jitters and left over emotions from my severely abusive ex. Just last night I was planning on going home because I spend a lot of nights at home because of my cats and he REALLY wanted me to stay so I stayed and we snuggled all night. In fact, most times it is he asking me to stay over and me declining because I have to go home. This is the first time he has ever not wanted a sleep over.
Wow. I am silly.
Anyway, last night I couldn't sleep because I was worried about not being able to get a Tuesday off on my work schedule because we have plans to go away. Just worrying about everything stupid.
What do you ladies do when this happens? To tell you the truth I already feel a lot better after I wrote this down.
creaking floors, you make me laugh,